Sunday, January 25, 2015


My massage therapist told me I should start journaling and I thought when do I have the time?  But I thought I'd get some quick thoughts out since I never use this thing, but wish I did.  I'm back in school.  This is where all my time is going, but I love it.  Have I found my passion?  I hope so!  I love what I am learning about but sheesh these teachers give a lot of homework.  And the ones that don't just base it off of four tests that cover all the information in the text.  All of it.  It's a lot of work.  I only work 20 hours a week now, so you think I would have plenty of time, but somehow there just never seems to be enough!  I'm making it work though!

Anyone know any great single guys? Yeah, me neither.  This single things a real bust.  But I guess it gives me time to focus on school. :)  If you happen to know one send him my way, because I'm pretty amazing and he'd probably think so too. :)

I found this amazing church here that I love. Rock Harbor.  If you are looking for a great church come check it out!  I serve in the 2-3 room on Sunday and I love it!  When the kids learn their memory verses instead of just following me, I am so proud!  They are all so sweet! :)  We are doing a Bible study on Wednesday mornings as well and I love that!  It is so fun to get together with other women and just talk about this crazy journey we call life.

Tanning - Sun!  The sun needs to come back because no one wants a tan!  :)  But as soon as that sun peaks out you all better come see me because this working part time biz means no money for me plus doesn't everyone want a healthy glow for spring and summer???  You know you do! :)

I am doing P90x3 again.  With my madre!  About to start week 4 and so proud of us both.  She does not work out and modifies a ton so I am so glad she is doing it and I needed to get off my bum and get back in gear so it is nice to have a partner.  Well that is all for now.  I have to go take a quiz and do a thousand more assignments and study!

Oh, and why did I see a massage therapist?  I have TMJ, and apparently there are massage people who specialize in the back/neck/face to loosen up those muscles.  If anyone has issues with this let me know b/c I had chronic jaw pain (mostly in my ear which felt like a constant earache and was really fun!).  My dentist recommended her, and I was sure I would have to go multiple times to even feel some relief.  Nope.  One time and the pain is gone.  Miracle worker I tell you.  And totally reasonably priced (or maybe I am still used to Seattle prices).  So, that is why I took her journaling advice.  Anyways, I will go back b/c she is amaze-balls, and I want to keep the pain away but it's been over a week and I am still pain free.  So happy! :)

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Dan + Shay

If you like country music and don't know these guys - you will!  I love them!!  I got to go to a meet and greet and their concert in Seattle last week.   (They will be here in Boise on the 25th - get your tickets!)  I had already purchased the tickets before I left Seattle and I was not going to miss them.  I love meet and greets and any opportunity to meet celebrities.  Musicians especially because I LOVE live music.  It's probably where most of my money goes because I am always down for a good concert.  Here are some pics and a video!  
 Dan, Me and Shay
 Dan, Kate, Shay and Me
 Kate and I getting photo bombed by one of Dan and Shay's tour mates :)
 Singing their hearts out - we were so close I actually felt awkward :)
Nothin' Like You - one of my fav songs - it's what they are singing above

I Got a Job!!

My old company is awesome because they are national and even though they don't have a location here in Boise, I was offered a position on another team where I can work remotely!  I will never be late to work again! :)  I start Friday and this is such an answer to prayers because I am trying to pay off debt (one reason I am living with my parents) and two the job market here in Boise is very different and I was going to take a huge pay cut to work here in another position.  (And since my goal is to pay off debt that was going to add on extra time that I would prefer to avoid.)  I am pretty sure I will be going to school starting in January.  I really do want to be a nurse and despite the back and forth on not wanting to give up a couple more years of my life to school I think this is the best choice for me.

I have a great workout set up in my garage so if anyone is doing any fitness challenges I would love to join in!  I have yet to use it, but will be later today!  (To be fair I set it up then went back to Seattle for a few days for a concert.)  I am so thankful to be back here in Boise and to have the chance to be here with my family.  As crazy as it sounds I am actually enjoying living here, which I did not think would be the case!  I knew coming back here was the right decision, but I didn't realize how quickly I would adjust and find so much joy and happiness.  I am so grateful for that!

Monday, September 22, 2014

I'm Back!!!

Oh this title means so many things!!!  I am back to blogging number 1!  And, I'm back in Boise!  Yay!  I'm also back to a routine (somewhat), and all settled in here at home.  That's right!  Back at the ol' parents pad!  :)  So thankful for this though because I can pay off some debt and start things off right here in Idaho.  However, I do still need a job, so I haven't paid off much debt yet! :)  I am just trusting God to help work things out and to humble me if I do have to ask for some (hopefully VERY short term) help from my parents.  Meanwhile,  my tanning biz is all set up here, so if anyone needs a tan I am running a special for $20!!!  Let me know if you are interested.

I am hoping to go back to school in January for nursing.  Not 100% sure on that yet, but we will see! :)  I actually have a few more things to blog about so I will be updating again soon!  And if anyone wants to hang out let me know.  I am so excited to be back here!
This is us caravaning back home!  I'm in the front my dad is in the Budget truck and my mom is driving their car and taking pictures. :) Love my family and so grateful for their help in getting me back to Idaho safely!!  Seattle friends I miss and love you all, and will be visiting soon!!! XOXO 

Monday, July 14, 2014

I Ate My Feelings Today

Disclaimer: I have been off my depression meds for a week (couldn't afford a refill on the prescription).  I am back on them as of today, but this all may sound a little worse b/c of that fact.

Today was a bad day.  Just one day after "beginning" my weight loss journey I fell back into the same pitfalls that got me to the weight I am today.   And in the interest of putting it all out there here was my day.  Let me set the scene first.

Last week at work we got in trouble for our numbers and had a review.  If you think about it the week that we were getting in trouble for was the week of the 4th of July.  I was out to days b/c I was sick and then we had a day and a half off for the holiday.  I still managed to get 4 client meetings and a couple job orders.  My coworkers were also out a few days due to vacation and illness.  We all got a nice talking to about how much we suck at our jobs.  This is why I struggle with this job.  If you take a vacation you are still expected to be amazing and not let it affect your numbers.  What is the point of a vacation if I have to work the whole time?  That is not a vacation.  I come in today after learning on Friday we have to have a meeting today to talk about our activity.  I am dreading this.  Then our boss doesn't even show up.  Which should be a blessing, but the lecture is still coming.  Apparently, my frustration has shown through as one of my coworkers asks me what is wrong.

Let's rewind a bit more.  I found out last week my grandpa has pneumonia after having heart surgery.  I rarely talk about my grandpa b/c I don't have much of a relationship with him.  I have tried but it's not easy. They still live in Wisconsin so visiting him is a bit of a trek. He likes to ask questions then interrupt you during the answer.  He married a not so nice person and last time we visited we were not well received.  There were a lot of questions of why we were there, and I'm thinking, well it is your birthday so we thought we'd come celebrate but if you don't want us to be here we can go.  At his party he thanked his wife's side of the family for coming but not any of us.  Oh I just flew 2000 miles to be here, but they drove 45 minutes so yay to them for being there for you.  I promised myself I wouldn't go back b/c it really hurt my feelings to try to do something nice and basically be shit on.  My parents and I were going to go to Hawaii this year for Christmas.  Now, my mom is like well we should go to Wisconsin instead to see your grandpa b/c he is not doing well.  Not to sound like a selfish bitch, but excuse me?  Now I have to give up my vacation and spend it in the tundra (Wisconsin) in December with someone who will probably thank everyone but me for being there?  No thanks.  I don't have any desire to get hurt like that again.  Do I want my grandpa to be sick?  Of course not.  But I also want to be from a family where your grandparents love you and enjoy spending time with you...

And my last frustration is many things jumbled into one.  I really hurt my knee when I fell last week and again on Saturday.  It hurts to move it and I woke up with the worst pain in it last night, and was up for an hour trying to fall back asleep!  However, it's summer and I want to enjoy it.  Where are all my friends who love adventure and trying new things?  I would love to spend a weekend in Silverwood and go to the amusement park there.  No one thinks that sounds like fun!  I want to go swimming at one of the lakes nearby - again struggling to find people who think that sounds fun.  I cried the whole way home from work telling my dad about all the things I am upset about.  There are more that I can't quite put out there right now including my weight - which you all know about, but mostly I was just emotional.  I know I sound like such a debbie downer, but a lot of things piled on to me today and I came home and did the worst thing I could.  I ate.

I had a bag of cheetos and a bag of doritos.  Not a full size bag but still - the ones you get at the gas station.  I know I'm an emotional eater and I hate that.  I am writing all this down because I don't want to hide it anymore.  I want people to know so that I can start to heal and make positive choices.  I want to be on a healthy journey but I don't want to let a little setback deter my end goal.  Tomorrow I will be purchasing some healthy food items to start my days off right.  (I had to wait until I got paid!)  I will be posting those tomorrow, so there is only one day of bitching.  I am promising to be 100 % honest on this journey so I needed to get this all out so you (and I) know where I am starting at.

Sunday, July 13, 2014

My Weight Loss Journey

I have talked a little bit about my weight loss/gain struggles a bit, but since this blog has been getting rejected and I need to hold myself accountable, I am dedicating this blog to that process.  I have been doing p90x on and off for the past couple years.  I have a thyroid disorder (hypothyroidism).  This causes my body to hang on to weight.  It loves fat!  :) The problem is I hate it.  However, more than anything I need to be healthy.  I am 30 years old and when I graduated from college I was a size 6.  I want to get back there!  I have gone up 12 sizes since then.  (Putting it all out there - since sizes go by 2, can I say I've just gone up 6 sizes? Haha)   I have had no kids yet, so I have nothing but myself to blame it on.  I struggle with depression and this weight struggle cannot be helping!

My struggles that are not due to nature.  I like to eat bad food. My vices are salty foods.  I like chips and dip.  I don't crave sugar as much (although I do love fro-yo).  I don't love veggies.  I like spinach, carrots, broccoli, cauliflower, corn, onions, avocado and tomatoes (which I think are technically a fruit).  I love fruit.  I eat chicken, hamburger, and turkey for meat, as I don't like a lot of meats either.  I am going to start eating smoothies in the morning and making sure I get lots of greens in there to up my veggie intake.

My goal is to work out at least 4-5 times a week for at least 30 minutes until I start p90x again in September with some friends.  (Then it's 6 days a week!)  I am seeing a specialist for my thyroid in August to make sure my body is all ready to help me in my health goals!  So, here is to good health.  Feel free to share any tips that have worked for you!  I am open to anything and excited to share my journey with you!

Friday, June 27, 2014


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