Thursday, April 14, 2011

Day 17

A Picture of Something that has made a huge impact on your life recently... Back to School!!! You are going to think I'm crazy but week two into it and I was balling like a baby last night. Can you say O-VER-WHELMED???!!!! And combine that with an overly emotional/dramatic person and you get tears of frustration and a lot of "I can't do this!" Yes, I have decided that by week two. But not really. Just a momentary lapse. I tend to freak out and then be okay the next day. Some days you just need a good cry. I know there are a lot of other things going on for me as well. But, I did freak out. And, that is why I intentially took tonight off. I have been doing accounting for 4 hours every night this week cramming for a quiz on Saturday. Lord have mercy, I've forgotten how to study, how to learn and I freaked out!!!! And, for my sanity's sake, I am watching Sex in the City and catching up on shows on my DVR and eating some Cheese Its. :) I will study tomorrow and will do the best I can on the first quiz on Saturday. Seriously, Jess, it is the FIRST quiz. Just gettin' in the groove here... it's gonna be okay. I also had to remind myself to treat myself like I would treat others. I am way more understanding with other's mistakes than I am with my own... (can we say just PART of the reason I was in therapy for a year! :) Anyways, enough venting. School has changed my life and I know that it will not only make me smarter and more knowledgable in the field of accounting... it will also make me stronger as a person. It's crazy how hard I have to work to LOVE MYSELF!!! Every morning I need to wake up and say, I love you. You are beautiful, you are strong, you are capable of anything you set your mind too. Do it with me and we will all have a better day! :)

1 comment:

Kristen said...

I think I will make that my mantra too! I feel ya on the homework! I sat at the computer for three hours tonight to work on a 10 page essay. You know how much I got done? The title. Yep that's it after three hours. Don't beat yourself up about it. Going back to school is hard and overwhelming and trust me I've cried more than a few tears in the past few years because of it! Just think, probably every one in that class is freaking out about the upcoming quiz as much as you are. Don't stress too much about it and in the mean time enjoy some good ol' Sex in the City for me! (the show, not literally you perv :)